Why? Internet drama.

I wasn't going to talk about this, but given the circumstances, looks like I have to. And this is going to be my only post about it, a public post so that I don't get accused of talking smack behind people's backs.

For those of you that don't know/haven't figured it out, I'm currently the activity mod for the_realbitches.

At some point a few weeks ago, Jekka (j_e_k_k_a) made a new community. The mods included two (now ex)-TRB members, Paloma (paloma_n_regina) and Lindsey (emokid07).

Jekka and I were LJ friends at the time (she deleted me after all this started) and I thought the comm looked interesting; since I knew the people in it, I figured I'd help a fellow bitch out and join.

A day or so later, I find out from head mod Cara (thequeen_x3) that Jekka supposedly took the essence of TRB and implemented them into her community. Basically, that it was a copycat comm. When Cara checked Jekka's comm, she found Paloma and Lindsey there. So she banned them all.

That should've been the end of it...but it wasn't.

Jekka had donated a bunch of graphics to TRB, including card sets. She wanted them taken down. Cara said no. Paloma raged at her. Cara still said no.

After a day of intense discussion, the mods shut everything down and went into revamp/regroup mode. We decided to just drop Jekka's graphics and remake the sets, so we wouldn't be in violation of anything. In the meantime, we would attempt to get back as much of Cara's work as we could-because most of it was, indeed, hers.

And then we all woke up to find that TRB's official Photobucket had been banned for supposedly violating the TOS. Mostly 'cause Jekka's images were still there.

There's a lot of name-calling and mudslinging going on, mostly at the public entries Paloma and Jekka made about the whole thing. I...chose to just focus on getting TRB back on track.

And then, just when it looks like TRB's ready to rock again...Photobuckets were being banned left and right again.

This is where it is now.

I, too, have been hit by Paloma and Jekka's crusade to shut TRB down. I'm dead sure they got my Photobucket because when one of the sisters made a cards post, they used the links that were directly from my Photobucket. Not that I'm blaming the sisters in any way.

I've had that Photobucket account since 2003.

I have photos in that account that aren't available to me anywhere else, mostly images from my own personal life over the years that I saved there precisely because I figured they'd be safe there. My 16th birthday, photos with my grandmother before she died of cancer, photos with old friends I haven't seen in forever...and I also have school-related things there. I suppose you could say that my whole life in photos was in that Photobucket.

Most people would say that it's just pixels, in the end, and at least I wasn't stabbed or physically hurt.

But you know what?

It hurts.

I actually sat and stared at my screen for a long time when I realized my account had been banned. And then, my obsessive-compulsive side took over and I took a mental note of everything in that account. And then, I started to cry.

Congratulations, Paloma and Jekka, for taking a huge chunk of my life and throwing it into oblivion.

You owe me prom night photos, photos of my last beach vacation with my dad and favorite uncle-slash-second father, photos of me and my younger brothers, photos of me and my older half-brother who's based in Thailand that I haven't seen in years, photos of my New York girls and I during RENT's last night on Broadway, photos of me with Idina Menzel, Jason Mraz icons made just for me, photos of me onstage with the original members of Nyoy Volante's band, photos of me and my best friend Giselle before she got pregnant and during her pregnancy, photos of my very first godchild three minutes after he was born, photos of my first horse and a hell of a lot more.

If you had so much as messaged me and asked me to take them down, I would have. I had a bunch of sets saved in my account, and I'm pretty sure most of them were Cara's.

No wonder I was feeling paranoid yesterday. My spirit guides were trying to warn me that evil was afoot.

Up until about half an hour ago I was merely pissed more than anything, but I wasn't really taking all this to heart. It's internet drama, for crying out loud, and at the end of the day...well, I have an offline life, so it doesn't kill me as much. This just makes me mad, for lack of a better word. More than anything, though, I'm hurt.

I hope you're happy.

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